some people are born with phenomenal talent, the rest are born with hope

2012-01-25T18:28:00.001+08:00

7 months & 2 days <3 <3

the first and last thoughts on my mind everyday
=)

2012-01-20T22:36:00.001+08:00

to run away. just run away.

2012-01-18T01:57:00.002+08:00

coffee makes everything so much better.
ok, perhaps alcohol too. the nice kind.

#justsaying

2012-01-15T00:13:00.001+08:00

just us =)

2012-01-12T23:36:00.002+08:00

this sem,
i will not go down without a fight!

let's go!
make it work!

2012-01-12T18:08:00.000+08:00

i wish nothing but the best for you

too

2012-01-10T23:36:00.002+08:00

it's the start of the new sem. probably my last sem in nus. cant believe how fast time flies. it's already the end of december holidays. end of thai camp.
im still not ready for school yet. barely settled down anything.
totally did not want to leave thailand one single bit. felt like this thai camp was not enough at all. it has ended too quickly.

currently facing ultimate stress from everything all around. it's like i came back from a different planet and timezone, currently now still catching up to reality.

catching up to reality.
yes this is the phrase.

here i go, to one sem of craziness. my most tiring sem to come.
i will make it work!

2011-12-31T23:41:00.001+08:00

Never a fan of extensive new year resolutions because hardly any of the gets fulfilled properly, always get forgotten halfway.

have only one resolution this year, that is

to look back on 31/12/2012, and see that ive had a memorable and awesome year. =)

so...
Here's to an awesome 2012 where familial relations and friendships will never break, grades will never drop, money will never decrease, stunts will never fall, performances will never disappoint, smiles will never fade, hearts will never break and the world will never end. ^^

2011-12-31T00:55:00.002+08:00

Blogging a more joyful post, unlike the previous one.

firstly, it's 31st December right now, new year's eve.

and

DARREN'S BIRTHDAY! so...

***HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN!!!!! <3 ***

=)))

new years eve countdown to the new 2012. hopefully 2012 will be a brand new and super awesome year!!

***

sidenote: for anyone who's interested, the current condition of the cyst. i am recovering well and fine. the cyst is hardly visible now, but still there. very tiny and all. still on medication. and still not wearing contact lens and eyemakeup until it has fully disappeared.

the eczema is doing ok too.the face has cleared up with the help of the cream from the doctor, but have to keep it under control with it constantly.

rashes on my body has more or less disappeared cos the antibiotic im allergic to is probably more or less no longer in my body

but bad news, i can never seem to be healthy completely why!!

having a very bad cough right now, tonnes of phlegm. not a good feeling. =(

drinking loads of pipagao and herbal tea, hoping it'll go away soon.

***

anyways, today i finally went out! after so many days of staying at home and in hall. being cooped up refusing to go out, having to nurse my cyst with hot towels to make it heal faster. spent time watching my little pony! haha..super lifeless and boring though.

went to Queensway first for Darren to get tights and then to Concorde Hotel to collect the microfibre towels i ordered off groupon. some microfibre antibacterial properties which i guess would be better for my skin. really think these vouchers deals websites are good. like allow consumers to save a lot of money. easy to use and find also.

then we had dinner at this japanese place called Tamako Meals

food was damn nice.

the yakitori combination set we ordered! 5 sticks!

ordered 2 chicken and 3 golden mushroom wrapped in bacon

both grilled until so nice

my rice and miso soup to accompany the meat!

i like japanese rice the most, cos of the sticky sticky texture. i can eat it on its own!

Darren's ramen.

in miso soup

nice also!

yay our entire meal. bill added up to $31.80 with the drinks.

looks like v little, kept thinking we should order more. but ended up damn full.

YAY. happy people! =))

[specs. boo=( ]

RANDOM::
yesterday night before sleeping i played around with the iphone's leme cam and it really is damn cool! i think one of the best camera apps on iphone there is. i'm not very sure about the lens and camera types and all, anyhow select but it seems like every single picture taken with it is nice. how awesome right!

took many photos of my precious snow globe ^^

the first one is taken with normal camera, the rest with leme cam app.

looks so magical. i love it so much. :)

will be going to thailand for training camp from 2nd-8th. looking forward to it! finally can go! woohoo!! =)

2011-12-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

the week leading up to christmas is probably one of the worst weeks of my life. really horrible, all ending with christmas night in A&E of TTS hospital. most memorable, but not the most pleasant.

first up was going back UHC on monday to check out the rash on my cheeks that got worst over the weekend and turns out i have eczema, which has to be controlled with a cream. explains the red patches and itchiness.been 7 months since i had it. not liking it

then wednesday night the eye started hurting and i was sure it would swell up the next day. not the first time it has happened. but this swell was much worst than the usual swells i get that subside after a day. there was a pimplelike thing growing on my eyelid, called a cyst i think. eventually got bigger despite and medications and treatments with hot towel.

on friday night and saturday night my body developed a rash, out of allergy to the antibiotic prescribed. it was written on the packet to stop medication if rashes appeared. sleep was of course, a horrid experience as i tried hard not to scratch.

sunday i had no antibiotics to take and the swell got bigger and more uncomfortable. then i decided i need to go cut it and let wadevr's inside out.

hence the evening cab down to TTS A&E and until finally after consultations with the nurse, doctor and eye surgeon, had to undergo a minor removal surgery. to make a small cut and drain out the oil that is retained inside. was a simple surgery, like the surgeon said, they do alot of it everyday.
the injection of local antiseptic into my eyelid, the cyst, was freaking painful. im not afraid of needles usually (3 tattoos yo) but this injection is really really painful. there were 3 jabs summore. but after that the surgery of the cutting and all is painless. only feel a pressure on my lids cos it had to be turned inside out. the surgeon said she is removing the oil and 'all the dirty stuff'. totally picturing some big river gushing out of my eye.
anyways, it was pretty fast and my eye got all patched up and covered and i was good to go home.

changed the dressing once last night cos the bleeding was too much and i was scared it might lead to an infection. today the removal of dressing was so painful, cos the blood dried up and was stuck to the dressing and all. but after cleaning and it is fine.

right now, there's still a visible pimple on my eye, smaller than before, and lighter. hope it recovers fast enough for me to go back training and go out normally.

missed 2 trainings already. NOT COOL ABOUT IT.

been cooped at home for the past 3 days, except to the hospital. feeling like shyt totally, not in any festive mood at all. sucks to be me this christmas i know.

but still, i am thankful for my family, darren and all the friends who helped cheer me up one social media or another. for meticulously looking after me at home.

everytime i sleep, i wake up, hoping that my eye will be fully recovered. pray hard that it does fast. =)

2011-12-24T13:08:00.001+08:00

(Oops. Posted one day late because of my stupid eye.)

Happy 6 months!

And merry christmas eve!

cheers to us ^^

2011-12-20T01:55:00.001+08:00

my eczema gives me a natural blush.
operation medical care, intensive cleansing and environmental control is ON!

2011-12-15T04:17:00.003+08:00

All i want for Christmas is You

and these other stuffs:

MY XMAS WISHLIST (tangibles)!

1) a new digital cam, maybe a semi pro? just want it to be a good decent camera that clear fabulous pictures and is slim and light enough to carry around

2) a rainbow coloured iphone case that has more than 5 stripes, the ones ive seen are thick stripes which are not nice

3) a set of makeup brushes. i only have two brushes now, one eyeshadow brush and one bigger one for blush and all.

4) a maxi dress. or two. always wanted to try them. tried them, liked them but never got down to buying them. will go back to that awesome shop in chinatown to see again

5) that pair of ribbon tie peep toe heels from Newlook in black with red ribbon and red pipings

6) the suede black heels with black elastic band crossed over it

7)and the red heels with elastic band also from Bata. Bata actually has chio and comfortable heels, contrary to popular belief

8) a tigger quiltcover. all they ever manufacture is winnie the pooh. so unfair

9) to go to universal studios again, this time, to try everything

9) another handbag/totebag that is nice and good for everyday use. no need to be branded. can be from bugis street

10) a smurfette plush toy, big one.

11) a tigger plush toy or two or three. just to add to my collection of about 30?

12) an espresso machine. who doesn't want this. there is this special one that's sold at coffeebean

13) books. anything that is nice. chick lit preferably. lit major but i spend my time with mindless brainless but ohsoentertaining chick lit

13 things for 12 days of Christmas plus one free bonus one.

haha, just speculating.

not very hard wad, right?

this is my tangibles wishlist. of course, the intangibles will probably be up soon. =DD

2011-12-14T03:20:00.000+08:00

favourite part of the day is after bathe when my body is feeling all squeaky clean and applying moisturizer on my face and body. Cetaphil moisturizing cream for my face and nivea creme for my body.
stupid dry and sensitive skin needs to be hydrated!

ok random.

epic bruises and pains and everything, everywhere, like always.
from cheer accidents. cheer injuries.
but
PAIN IS NOTHING!

fighting..fight on!!!

2011-12-12T18:58:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was dayout for lunch at town with sec skl mates aka Wess!
went through obstacles and irritating problems until we finally settled for lunch at Waraku at Heeren. we were all starving by the time the food came.

spent quite a while at the flea market at *Scape. was expected to buy stuffs there, what with all the less than $10 clothes, iphone covers..etc etc
but ended up not buying a single thing!! >.<

just when we were about to leave, saw an ad for L'Oreal warehouse sale!!
immediately chionged there and spent $60! haha!

my haul!

Maybelline EyeStudio Lasting Drama Gel liner in Brown

L'Oreal Colour Riche lipstick in 612 Velvet

Maybelline Diamond Glow Eyeshadow palette in 03 Gray Pink

L'Oreal Open Eyes Pro Eyeshadow palette in Smokey Brown (gave this to my mum!)

actually loved this but i think she will like it too so i gave it to her

Maybelline the Magnum Volum' Express waterproof mascara

L'Oreal Glam Shine lip gloss in Creamy Peach

Maybelline Colour Sensational lipstick in Pink Bloom

and a

Maybelline Minerals concealer [not in the picture] which i gave to my aunt!

everything total spent $60 only! whee!!

quite lucky cos it was the last day of the warehouse sale.

I quite like makeup but im not that zai to create really really beautiful looks. still experimenting and playing around, following makeup tutorials. more interested in skincare though, cos my face is a hell of a wreck under all the makeup. thanks to my horrid sensitive skin that gives me tonnes of problems.

loreal n maybelline are still drugstore kinds of brands, not really the atas sephora bobbi brown mac kind. but shall slowly invest! =DDD

and and and

i'm looking for a new iphone cover! have yet to find any nice&affordable ones.

and before ending of this post::

a gif i made using a new app. hahaha..of Darren!

added cherry blossoms effects cos japanese restaurant mah..so must have that kind of effect. =P

enjoy**

2011-12-11T02:08:00.001+08:00

i think you are simply the most caring and understanding boyfriend in the world.
and i love you to bits for it. =)

2011-12-10T15:04:00.001+08:00

I FINALLY WATCHED WICKED AFTER WAITING SO MANY MONTHS FOR IT!!!
and i loved every single second of it.

totally loved the book when i read it during the holidays, loved the songs that were used in glee, streamed snippets of the musical online

the moment i knew Wicked was come to mbs, went to book tickets as early as i could. was still quite late though cos all the good seats for the first few weeks were snatched up real quick.
managed to get good seats for 10dec matinee show. $168 each. T_T

but in the end got free tickets for 9dec show! and 2nd row! side block but is the innermost of the sideblock. the view was awesome cos i could see every single facial expression. and could see the sets and actions and everything!

so we sold our old tickets! and earned money back.

the songs, acting everything was too magical and amazing.

cried during the show not just because of the plot but because i was too happy to be there. seriously too happy to be there.

like a dream come true. =)

2011-12-08T02:36:00.001+08:00

today was clear-errands day! well, actually just 2 errands but we needed to travel to specific places to do them.

it was super hard waking up with my muscle aches from the days nonstop of dance camp and cheer trainings.

went to paya lebar first to collect darren's (and tim's) speakers from city plaza. lunched at singpost, gosh, havent been there in ages. used to go there to eat froyo and study at the coffeebean cos there was a straight bus from ny there. but the froyo shop has closed down since.

city plaza, the lok kok mall with blogshop clothes. was initially to get some shopping done there but turns out the clothes there are expensive at retail price. only cheap if i buy in bulk. =(

went through some trouble to get the voucherlicious things printed out and all cos printed the wrong thing, then had to get tim's password to access the account on darren's laptop. sat at some malay eating place to use laptop. then had to find a printer and all. eventually managed to get everything done
and bought a strawberry ear cap, falsies, eyelash glue and lipbalm there along the way!

then off to chinatown for me to go to utterly art gallery to collect my bro's package which he passed to his boss there. yay! nice dresses from h&m and a postcard! from london!
and shopped at chinatown streets cos the streets are so nice!! have nice sundresses and maxidresses amongst the tourist-y stuffs. and guy's tshirts also. =)

found a favourite shop! having 50% sale now also. planned to go there again soon. ^^

shopping for cheap clothes ftw!

and today simply the weather was awesome for us. i think it only rained while we were eating so we weren't affected. and other than that we spent almost the entire afternoon outside and the weather was perfect!
=D

yayy!
holidays are awesome!

2011-12-06T20:34:00.001+08:00

http://cgi.ebay.com.sg/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=250947847580#ht_500wt_1135

i am selling my Wicked tickets! Click the above ebay link for more details!

edit: THE TICKETS ARE SOLD!

2011-12-04T00:48:00.001+08:00

FINALLY! exams are over for this sem!

indeed a super super tiring sem despite reducing core workload. (predict im gonna die next sem cos have to make up for the reductions)

all i need to do now is just to rest and sleep and play and just relax until results, until the next sem where the entire cycle repeats, except with even more things going on i.e. sncc, du.

but anyways, shant think about anything because it's DECEMBER!

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!! =DDD

some overdue pictures from my phone::

outing with darren in between our papers, before our last exams.

lunch at Marutama Ramen at Central.

SUPER NICE RAMEN! esp the egg. **must learn how to cook it like that!

but i couldnt finish the noodles and gave much of it to darren who ended up eating A LOT.

until he felt extremely bloated. hahaha, so funny seeing him so gao wei cos he kept complaining. =P

Ramen! with the egg!

logo of the place resembles a basketball right?

then we went to vivocity to wait for our movie.

to Toys R US!

See him having so much fun with the toy saxophone.

hahahaha...he was rlly enjoying it lor. LOL

and we watched YOU ARE THE APPLE OF MY EYE

IT IS SUPER DUPER NICE! OMG! ALL THE BROUHAHA SURROUNDING IT IS NOT AN EXAGGERATION! IT IS THAT GOOD SEE IM TYPING IN CAPS WHICH SHOWS HOW AWESOME IT IS!

I loved every single aspect of it! the characters, plot, dialogue, setting everything!

Was crying endlessly at the ending parts of the movie.

just everything was AMAZING.

everyone should go watch it, highly highly recommended

no regrets totally. i was so looking forward to it and i am not disappointed one bit!

don't mind watching it again!!=)

listening to their soundtrack now and watching the makings videos.

hahaha..

***

Yesterday was my last paper (2nd last day of exams! hen late pls)

celebrated with claypot laksa at Alexander food village with the marketing peeps!

the laksa super gao

I LIKE! (Y)

At night was the Tron gig at Zouk! for FHM christmas party

costume use alot of effort hor.

and props too.

and makeup.

the blue is lit up by UV lighting!

cant wait for video to be uploaded!

to see the effects!

and today is family day again,

lunch with mum then meet my other relatives.

had ice cream at swensens (on top of truckloads of other foods)

my cousins - damien & demisia

Kids' volcano ice cream.

love the dry ice effects.

My Pink Mint Frost single scoop ice cream

love the name, sounds so christmasy~

and love the taste

i think all things minty are nice. haha

and demisia bought her 1st pair of heels today! hahaha! kiddy pink cinderella heels she picked out herself!

because she was so much in love with the toy heels so we decided to buy a real pair for her.

so cute right!!!!!

and other random photos::

after my paper i went to kacheow and kpo darren's sleep =P
and took photos. hahaha =)

and my holiday reads!

no, i am not those who read cheem classic lit books for leisure even though i am a lit major

i want light reads

the first book totally picked out because of the nice title only. hahaha

and 2nd book was pretty much random cos you can't go wrong with Jodi Picoult

first time buying a less happy bimboish book like jodi picoult's.

usually i read tonnes of chick lit because they are happy and make me happy too.

nice logic right.

and my new found love/cravin KIMCHI

lol.

bought a small jar of it so i can eat it anytime i want.

but the smell of it is quite strong it has filled my entire fridge with that smell

ohwell, shall clean my fridge soon.

and now,

time to enjoy my holidays.

2011-11-30T23:50:00.001+08:00

Last two nights of battle.

Before i can finally rest my tired soul.

Press on!

2011-11-29T23:34:00.001+08:00

listening to a 100 songs youtube mix of 五月天 songs. reminiscence of my primary school to secondary school to jc days. where their albums, songs accompanied me through all my exams, my studying, my everyday, permanently on my mp3. where my mp3 had noone else but 五月天 songs.

the album collection, the concert video collection, the autograph sessions, queuing for hours to see them or to get tickets, the concerts, the tshirts, the posters, the fan merchandise from pens to badges to lightsticks, every video, every tv programme, every advertisement, every news report about them.

writing out their lyrics everywhere, translating them to english, memorizing them, thinking about them, crying, laughing, dreaming while listening to their songs and watching the mtvs
their stories were my inspiration, their music was my mantra.

my most fangirl mode. my favourite band. what i grew up with.

hahas, really lost touch ever since i became so busy with uni life

but now, listening to their music, truly, really, nothing can match their magic. =)
always and forever, 第一天团

2011-11-29T14:46:00.001+08:00

Got myself a sinful pack of Arnott's mint slices today. Im know im not an avid fan of sweet things, neither do i have a sweet tooth.
But once in a while, i'll get myself something sweet with chocolate
Because chocolates can release endorphins which makes one happy right? I need that dose of happiness.

*am quite sure i will breakout in more pimples after i finish that pack.

I would like to share it anyway, so feel free to find me if you want it! (whoever still reads this old blog of mine)

2011-11-29T00:42:00.001+08:00

You are the apple of my eye.

2011-11-27T00:22:00.001+08:00

yay i bought new heels today!! and cheap too. =)

and i bought the iphone 4s.

HURHUR~

i know ive been saying and wanting to get the bb9900 because it looks so sleek and chic and cool and awesomepossum ttm rite?
and well it has a both a touchscreen and a qwerty keyboard. the qwerty keyboard being the thing i like most about it. because i always think the sensitive touchscreen is super frustrating to use. i think i am too rough for such a sensitive device. plus i love the tiak tiak tiak tiak feeling of typing fast on the physical keys. i am darn sure it's secretly therapeutic.

but at the same time, i am still drawn by the apps and functions (and nice colourful iphone casings) of iphone and all the hype surrounding it. everyone was getting iphones, switching from bb to iphone. my dear darren changed frm bb to iphone, complaining how not good bb was and how awesome his new iphone was. i like the iphone games and functions and browser loading speed (WHY BB SO MOTHERSLOW!)

i always tot the ideal phone would be an iphone that could slide out a qwerty keyboard! (and a ps3 game controller one other side) hahahaha...

nevertheless i knew my contract has ended but i cldn't really decide on which phone to get plus i am kind of unwilling to let go of my bbcurve8520 despite it being an old model that is slower and lower resolution. the fb twitter emails etc were working fine. and because i was playing darren's itouch most of the time, since he is using iphone dy, don't need the itouch anymore. it is such a dear phone to me! haha

but today it died a premature death because it slipped my hands and dropped into my bowl of noodle soup! tried frantically to dry it and all but in the end it couldn't be switched on.

damn sian. super super unhappy and angry with me and my butterfingers.

ended up going downstairs and queuing up for a number to buy a new phone. because my contract has ended anyway, i need to recontract and recontract prices are way way lower. it's the prices they put big big in your face on ads. lol.

anyways, so i had 1 hr to decide which phone to get. and idk what where when how why

i ended up getting the iphone 4s. 16gb. black.
i paid $248 for it. is not very ex right! for an iphone.
but i am so effing broke now after paying for it.
i am epic bad at saving money. E-P-I-C

i guess i am ultimately, a victim of marketing and a trend follower.

hahaha..shall play around with the new phone and see what's it like. (tomorrow, after charging it overnight tonight) and buy screen protector. and a protective casing and the sticker for the button. and a portable charger if there is. and a matching pouch with the casing. and a matching handbag for the pouch. and a matching outfit for the bag. and matching shoes for the outfit. and matching makeup for the look. hahaaha, talk about investments.

hope i don't regret my decision.

anyway, enough about the phone.

today was a day well spent at causeway point with my family. quite a big group outing. had lunch and dinner there. plus walked around and shopped around. =DD
bought new heels! i think ive mentioned it already but either way, i bought new heels! =P

it's been almost 3 years since ive been to causeway point. the place has changed quite a bit but there are still many things that remained the same. wonder what it'll look after all the current renovations are done. like almost half the place is closed up for renovations.

and i dislike weekends because the place is so crowded and packed!! hard to manoeuvre through the waves of people everywhere. and it is tiring to walk around all day when i'm having slight cramps and carrying a heavy bag. marketing textbook heavy pls. but still it was fun la, going around and seeing stuffs. ^^
family time!

today is a study-free day. tomorrow i shall embark on marketing catch up and revision for my last paper on friday!
then i'll be done with the sem!

i cannot wait to cheer again. to dance again. to be free from schoolwork stress. even if it is just for a month.

and time to get my holiday chick lit reads!! *^^*

(and spend more time with darren =P)

2011-11-23T01:50:00.001+08:00

happy 5 months ^^

2011-11-21T12:22:00.001+08:00

feel like haven't flown in a long time. stupid exam period training on hold. feel like stunting. even just for a little bit.

want to fast forward time to 2 dec where i end exams.
dislike that my papers are so spread out. sure, i have more time to prepare for them but it tends to lead to reverse effect of me not sensing the urgency. and the OPEN-BOOK marketing exam is one week from the asian american lit exam while the two CLOSED-BOOK exams are only 2 days apart. not ideally spread out if u ask me.
there are people who will finish like today or this week or sometime soon! and it sucks to end on the very last day. never ended so late before. but oh well, shall look at it as ample preparation time!!

i am tired of school.

2011-11-20T15:46:00.001+08:00

super new cravings for spicy food. namely, LAKSA.
after reading a few articles about spicy food helping one to lose weight because it increase your metabolic rate cos it raises the thermic effect of your foods helping it produce energy to help digestion. Sound all science-y like a pro! =P haha but laksa is shiok!

another spicy food i want to buy more of is kimchi! the only korean food ive been eating is the bulgogi set from biz canteen. i like it alot and it's cheaper to in school. the kimchi is nice so i always ask for double portion. i wanna go to supermarket and buy the kimchi in a jar like what my mum bought before so i can eat it all the time! =P ahahaha. what better than a nice spicy snack that helps u lose weight instead? plus it's spicy so i can't eat alot of it at one time mah. reduce quantity also.

haha. okok back to mugging

2011-11-17T21:12:00.001+08:00

can't wait for exams to over on 2nd Dec.
then i will get down to clearing my shopping + splurging list (not that i am not spending money now from online shopping =P)
then i will sleep non-stop everyday and wake up when i feel like
then i will nua at home and watch cartoons all day long

but till then,
mugger mode ON

3 more mods - ssa2211, en3234, mkt1003x
to go!!

2011-11-09T17:13:00.000+08:00

gonna start thinking about my christmas wishlist soon! =)
something to take my mind off the horrendous exams and truckloads of work i have to do in preparation for it.

2011-11-08T14:31:00.000+08:00

Random stuffs post... lol, looking at photos in my bb.

shall probaby attempt to blog something with pictures before i start churning my last essay assignment.

realize my bb is filled with photos of food. =P b

because food is awesome.

the one and only drink i drink from koi

vanilla milk tea with herbal jelly 0% sugar

yes 0% and it tastes way awesome

it's sweet from the milk the tea and the jelly!

this is some awesome red tea in a packet which i fell in love with after drinking it at home

it's like bbt in a packet but not so sweet

ended up buying like extra packets of it and a 1.5L bottle

hahahaa..

satay, from chongpang food market

still the favourite ever..

mutton only because it's the best flavour.

dinner with darren at the food place behind ginza.

the roast pork charsiew rice all that

plus the wanton soup

Din tai fung xlb!!!!

need i say more??

this is prawn and meat dumplings from din tai fung which is actually very nice also

this weird looking dish, turns out to be super super nice after finally getting the courage to try it

it's red dates with some glutinous rice muah chee-like thingy inside

really sweet and damn nice leh..

waffle with cookies and crean & vanilla bean ice cream from udders

late night suppers with sec school friends

our maggi mee dinner alst night, inside got 3 packets

xo seafood flavour.

watched glee while eating, shiok only.

and a random photo about my new bb portable charger. nice shade of pink! been trying to find the plain design ones cos places like bugis street only sells them in hello kitty or some other kok design. and the bb one (micro usb) is so hard to find because i keep only seeing those for iphones. everything is marketed for apple products nowadays but as much as i think the iphone is cool, i like the old keyboard and i'm happy using a bb though. am considering getting the new bold 9900. looks damn nice.

the $2 note is only there for comparison of size

ok, done with random blogging.

this is the last week of school. next week is reading week and the week after is exams

time flies but then

two weeks later, after 2dec it'll be the end of exams

and i can finally take a break.

cant't wait. seriously.

last essay assignment for this sem, 4-6 pages essay for asian american lit. time to write!

2011-11-02T17:45:00.001+08:00

am close to the end of the sem! 4 more deadlines and 4 more exams and it's holidays!

PRESS ON!!

tiring everyday waking up and doing work then training then its doing work again.
it's just reading stuff for assignments, writing out the assignments, then revising them again and again.
havent even started revising for exams. that'll come after all the deadlines. i hate deadlines.
i'd very much rather just keep reading and revising than have to complete an assignment. but then again, without the assignments, i'm pretty sure i will not consistently study anything, probably end up waiting till the last minute to panic and try to squeeze everything in to my tiny brain. not looking forward to reading week though, everyday wake up study sleep repeat. constantly having people complaining endlessly on twitter and facebook, including myself. but i guess that's uni life for you and me.

dislike pimple outbreaks on my face!! always happens when i'm stressed. >.<

and been failing miserably in my attempts to diet and lose weight. been eating nonstop. super no discipline and determination. ugh!
and i really don't know why i keep feeling hungry, like my appetite is damn good and my stomach keeps grumbling, even awhile after i eat.
trying to curb hunger pangs with liquid but to no avail. made things worse in fact.
but am trying to stay away from sweets unhealthy oily stuffs though.
i hate dieting.
looking forward to the day where food doesn't make people fat. that, will be utopia.

=) alright, off to meet my favourite boy for dinner now! ^^

2011-10-30T15:00:00.002+08:00

an awesome day out is where we have movie +

gastronomic pleasures -

KOI! my fav vanilla milk tea with herbal jelly 0% sugar

dinner at fav orchard towers thai food place

Authentic Cha Yen! not the fake tehpengs =)))

seafood pineapple rice! the best one already.

green curry with chicken. shiok only

fried kai lan with roast pork. our attempts at including more healthy vitamins in our meal

+ retail therapy

Our loot!
Elvie - Dress $15, earrings 3 pairs $5, bag $15, clutch $10, flats $21.90, uniqlo jacket $29.90

Darren - 2 tshirts $32, backpack $25

and everything damn cheap! Bugis Street FTW!

our fav place to shop! hahaaha....

+ best company <3

*^^*

2011-10-27T19:13:00.001+08:00

been having erratic mood swings lately. maybe it's pms. not anything new though, nothing surprising.

crunch time is now and i am so happy amlit essay deadline got pushed back! which gives me ample time to catch up and complete my individual marketing assignment which is due on monday, alongside with marketing presentation, presentation report and bilingualism poster presentation. whew! but the new amlit essay deadline clashes with ss 2nd assignment though. but thank goodness i am halfway through the amlit essay. =)

what does this mean? this means i can go out this weekend!
i need some retail therapy, go out and walk around, watch a movie and all. i want to watch what's your number.
i need real retail therapy, not online shopping, but physically walk around the shops and buy stuffs. am aiming to buy a new jacket and cheap cartoon tees for school!! =)

am growing my hair right now, trying to keep it and see if i can get back my long hair. i kinda miss tying it up in a ponytail.
it's been 1 year 4 months since i cut short hair and dyed it brown. i love it in this shade.
when my long hair grows out it's gonna be black hair me again.
then i cant tie my coconut tree for cheer.
but i shall see how. havent had long hair for so long.

ok, back to studying. i am so near the end of the sem. after deadlines, it's exams and then it's one month holiday! time for cheer and cheer only.

2011-10-26T01:06:00.001+08:00

today i have a free evening again ...
which i spent sleeping >.<

was suppose to sleep from 9.15pm to 10pm but ended up waking at 12 instead. LIKE A LOSER.

darren woke me up at 10 then he went for his takraw -i should totally learn how to play this, i can totally do a grand battement when the ball flies towards me face- match but guess i have not the will to really wake up and well, snoozing myself basically never ever work and hallelujah i wake up 2 hours later. slept like a shiok only!!

totally trying to justify the sleep. I HAVE NOT BEEN GETTING ENOUGH SLEEP. i never did ever since i came into hall lor please. sleeping at 3am 4am is the norm and sleeping before 2 is considered early. it's an upside down inside out body clock tick tock tick tock going wrong! lifestyle problems. deal with it. i whimper.
plus today i had 3 lessons!! i had asian am lit tutorial from 2-3pm (freaking have no idea what i was doing there), american lit tutorial from 4-6pm where my group presented and ss lecture 6-8pm. plus 3-4 i went to study in clib lor. see? i can probably explain why i am so tired and greatly needed the rest!

and im used to napping in the afternoons because i am a baby like that.

ok at least in the one hour i've been up ever since i have completed my part of the bilingualism project, for the proj meeting tomorrow. yes i know it's an indian festival public holiday but i have no life you see, i still have project meetings on public holidays.

and of course, steppers training OBVIOUSLY [gives that face]
11am to 3am
see how we jump at the chance to train extra and in the day during school holidays,
just like how we all jump to conclusions like a boss,
that [inserts dramatic pause here] is dedication.

alright, blog post done. back to work. time for Hawthorne and Dickinson.

2011-10-22T00:12:00.001+08:00

2011-10-21T03:09:00.000+08:00

i've learnt to cherish free evenings where i can get work done. or well, evenings that do not end late into the night. =)

i am tired from study, from doing assignments. it's never-ending and i am seriously super super daunted about the mountainload of work to do. 0_0 i hate deadlines.

i wish school can just stop for a while for me to catch my breath and catch up.

upward hill battle for the amazing view on top.

2011-10-14T03:22:00.001+08:00

today shall be termed 'accomplished nothing day'. read a holymoly 1 paragraph of Thoreau's biography in my am.lit text, not even the primary reading, just background. way to go me. gave up on uninteresting and overdue anyway reading on russell leong and some diaspora thing (gay porn!)

tonight is one of the rare nights where my activities end real early (8pm!). was like determined to spend this good extra time to finish up some readings tonight. BUT NOWAYHOSAY, instead i barely finished anything and spent a good idontknowanddontwanttocounthowmany hours doing godknowswhat online. surfing and browsing and just randomly doing things, which include what this blog post im writing now. seeing that i only update here once in a blue moon thus shows how slack i am right now. like a boss.

still me i will look for stuffs to do that is not schoolwork at night, like going to check out usp cheer in a while.

[entry writing paused because went to utown. bought starbucks!! =DD starbucks is <3 <3]

anyways, ya, totally is finding excuses and other things to do NOT STUDYING. very very bad attitude. so much for wanting to MAKE IT WORK this sem pls.

tomorrow is a (self-declared) free day, as with all fridays. whee long weekend yo! it's usually the day i wake up really late (well, i wake up quite late everyday except thursday, because lessons are later), but pray hard tomorrow i have enough focus and determination to complete a decent amount of work before dance and training at night.

yayy looking forward to performing all the gigs, really fun. on stage is the best feeling ever. performer at heart=) not to mention earning money! seriously the best way to earn money. haha.
everyday only looking forward to doing the things i love the most, cheer and dance. full time cheerleader dancer part time student. ^^
how awesome this is.

still, reality bites. i really should start reading and working on my assignments. i just checked and they are all so damn freaking near one another. i foresee yet another horrendously exhausting crunch time. start early! how many times do i need to remind myself, start early!!!!!!

make it work. in all aspects. just make it work.

2011-10-13T21:41:00.001+08:00

<3 <3

2011-10-01T15:16:00.002+08:00

that was my 2nd and my last atci. it was a nice ASU closing chapter. =) will definitely want to go back and watch/frontspot or something. haha. can't wait to go back to bkk again! haha.

right now, onward to nationals! there is no such thing as rest or break. it is ALL THE WAY!

another thing which i am trying harder to focus on this sem/year is studies. yes, im still lagging super alot in studies thanks to the 6 days schoolwork detachment in thailand. haha.
jiayou to me ok! can one!

and i have sosweet here to push me nag at me. =P

2011-08-13T00:04:00.001+08:00

start of a new sem. this sem, i'm gonna

MAKE IT WORK!

2011-07-22T12:25:00.002+08:00

last day of attachment today. blogging from school now. time really flies, can't believe it 4 weeks is already over. my project to review the lower sec language programme is done and dusted - the 31page report and the presentation to principal, vice principal, mentors...etc

will never forget all the classes that i went into, the lesson observations, the endless survey forms i had to look through, the different literature textbooks and teaching resources i looked at.

best time ever was the time spent with the 16 other temps in the tiny workroom, talking joking about the randomest n lamest jokes, talking joking about everything and nothing. =) will definitely miss all of them.

will really miss this school alot actually.

but

looking forward to not needing to wake up so damn early every single day n travel all the freakin way from kr to yishun. haha. waking up's a bitch.

really too damn hectic lifestyle these month or so, now that attachment is over, everything will be easier by a lot.

completed,

seniors perf (steppers + hiphop), moe attachment

still upcoming,

kr rag, biz rag, bash.

jiayou.

and oh ya, school is starting soon as well =.=

2011-07-19T00:57:00.001+08:00

no matter what i will never forget, this regret.

2011-07-12T00:21:00.001+08:00

everyday is just busy and tiring but i will get through all this. =)

2011-06-17T19:33:00.001+08:00

i love spending time doing the things i love.

cheer, dance

2011-06-12T13:57:00.001+08:00

an anchor inside me.

2011-06-08T04:01:00.002+08:00

first time anyone has done anything like this for me before.

truly truly very touched.

first time ever to have any form of celebration at all.

glad to be remembered. i feel loved. ^^

thanks for this amazing memory. =)

2011-06-02T12:08:00.003+08:00

so what do i want for my birthday this year??

2011-05-17T03:34:00.001+08:00

people should just stop talking to me.

breaking off human contact.

2011-05-11T11:20:00.001+08:00

"a song of longing and otherness, of far aways and future days."

-Gregory Maguire, Wicked

2011-04-28T03:25:00.002+08:00

to do list after exams:

-clean up itunes library

don't like the state it is in now. have to make all the playlists proper and the syncing with my ipod and everything! now it's all a mess and there're songs which i haven't even transferred in.

edit: actl, i want to clean up the entire computer. pictures and videos and movies folders, everything properly. sounds like a plan to me.

2011-04-25T20:45:00.003+08:00

i want to blog today, write something more. =) having just finished my 1 out of 2 exams.

ohmytian it1001 intro to computing open book exam, srsly fml can go n die. so difficult omg. flipping through the notes and textbooks countlessly frantically during the exam. cannot find anything at all. smoking like don't know what for the section B part. sjpttm lor.

exams are a bitch.

seriously so not in the exam mood. i think it is cos of the fact that ive only 2 open book exams this time. yes yes complacent max. i knowww...but still need to study and prepare for it! ahh~

but i am so glad the godawful crunch time (DU+4 assignments due within like 5 days) is overrrrr~~~ was so dreading it ttm when i saw the truckloads of deadline in my organizer. summore got DU at the same time. wondered what came over me to still sign up for DU but i'm damn motherglad i did. ^^y
it was hell having to churn out those essays. i don't even know what's the quality of my work (scared to find out also. ohmannn~~~) but the sheer quantity to me, is insane.

duh cannot compare to people writing thesis or doing fyp la. but i still feel is alot lor

EL3204 is 2500 word research paper which in the end amounted to a 22 page thick assignment, cos it's turned out to be 2500 words + 8 appendixes. 0_0 this was due on 14 april

mod got no exam.

oh ya and i got a B for this. WHEE, thank goodness. but in the lower avg of the class though T_T

avg is btwn B+ ~ A- ...ohwell...

prof actl sent us an email showing the bell curve of the research papers, and it was so freakin scary pls cos there was 2 C+, 1 C and 1 D+ and wth im like panickingextrememode what if i am that one D+.

EN3229 shakspeare module, 2nd essay assignment 8-10 pages. supposed the big assignment for this mod, cos is non-examinable. wth this essay is my most disappointing and unhappy with essay and blame myself solely for that because i know it is badly written but for reasons unknown (probably known actually but don't want to admit), just finished and submitted. pray hard that i get an ok grade. that i dont crash and burn too badly. *stabs myself* this was due on 15 april

EN3248 american comedy essay 2000 words, about 6-7 pages i think. this was my most worriedheadache essay since the start cos i cant freaking hell remember any of the movies ive watched in class due to the lesson being too early in the morning (10am) thus me snoozing my way through all the screenings. plus the occasional never go for class due to obvious reasons = never watch the films. module is 100% CA and this is the only assignment we have the entire sem. go figure. means this essay is the make or break it thing. ok la, forum contribution amounts to part of the overall grade, of which i think ive only wrote like twice or smth in the forum. this was due on 19april

managed to do it over the weekend =)

EN3224 20th century literature paper, 1500-1800 words, considered short liao compared to the others. this was initially due on 19apr but heng got extended to 21april so i had a grand 2-3 days to finish it. this mod headache also sia, cos ive only attended i think 3 lectures the entire sem. exam for this mod next week!! JIAYOU!

and on top of all those, DU bump in 12apr, DU 13apr and 14apr, means these 3 days are entirely burnt at UCC. but burnt in a good way. =) totally know that no work will be done in ucc so didnt even bother to bring stuff to complete essay there. agree? agreed.

nights before DU spent in dance studio dancing =))))) damn awesome. totally bu yao write essay.

and DU practices started like immediately aftr nationals ended. #win #damnzai #welcometohalllife

but it feels good to always be dancing/cheering. until noww~~ zzzzzz.....

i think, withdrawal symptoms max out. bth

and totally gaining weight getting fat like nobody's business. cannot fit into shorts and tummy overflowing bulging out heavy ttm i think 60kg++++++++ liao.

and laziness redefined, not doing anything about it but kping and eating simultaneously.

see? exams are a bitch.

anyways, i have about 1 week to my next paper. i really should mug for it, prepare and make notes for it. even though is openbook. it's a core mod still.

stop sleeping and screwing up my body clock.

ohyaaa omg i actl manage to not oversleep for my 9am paper today, seeing that i havent woken up before 9am since godknowshowlongagopls. was so afraid that i'll oversleep sia. haha but didnt! stil can eat waffle before going for exam. how zai.

blogging actually cheers me up. ^^ likes it.

ok back to doing other stuffs. hopefully studying.

shall end the post with a picture of my fatuglytummy and the hibiscus tattoo on it!

and this is the book where i got the design from. just saw it, liked it and got it. haahaha....

edit:
OH YA, i update my tumblr blog http://elvienawang.tumblr.com/ like wayy more often that this one, cos there's nice emomomomo photos and stuff i reblog and/or like all the time. surfing tumblr, or tumblr-ing as ppl call it IS addictive. noshit, it seriously is. like can browse through everything and anything and nothing for hours counting on&on&one, it's pretty amazing really.

2011-04-22T23:40:00.001+08:00

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then their done

2011-04-19T15:46:00.001+08:00

my kryptonite

2011-04-17T17:50:00.001+08:00

18. Plane

Car is parked, bags are packed,

but what kind of heart does not

look back? An hour to boarding,

and I wish I could tell you how

much I miss you.

I'm leaving your town again.

If the plane goes down,

I just wanted you to know that

I loved you, I really did.

2011-04-12T15:14:00.002+08:00

this is my bb, my bb wallpaper, my bb keychain.

it says my name. and i says forever young.

2011-04-11T03:36:00.001+08:00

usually a fan of dark macabre unhappy evil demonic sinister evil stuffs,

but this somehow, i think is really beautiful. =)

2011-04-10T02:28:00.002+08:00

it's 2.30am and i am at home. yesyesyesyes, spending the night at home. been how long since i stayed for more than like 2-3 hours at home, much less stay overnight.
i sound like a hobo. -_-|||

im very tired now from writing my essay (so far so far from finishing all the assignments..haizzzz) so i want to take a break and blog.

life's been to hectic for me to come home, for me to want to come home.

i realize, going home and going to school, is two things i don't do very often. which is very weird right? then where does that leave me?

it's simple really, i sleep. on my bed. in hall.
i have a super super packed schedule filled with cheer trainings and dance practices and tonnes of schoolwork i need to do (of which i have accomplished NOTHING).
but i get enough sleep - in fact more than enough - by sleeping in the mornings and afternoons.
WIN.

and yes, goodbye to my cap this sem.
i have been an awfully horrendous student, laziness redefined.
best part is that i don't seem to care as much. and i don't seem to care that i don't seem to care. geez, this is like some lame paradox.

and yes, my body clock is royally screwed. how fantastic. applause people.

actually, at this hour, i have no idea what the fuck i am blogging about, there's no single topic. like an essay without a proper thesis. like all my crappy essays which i forcefully churn out to hit the minimum word/page limit.
my mediocre skills, my below average intelligence, my extreme laziness, in this elite school, this proclaimed best uni in sg. OHMYTIAN.
this, children, is called ASKING FOR IT

if somehowbyhowidontknowhow you read my tumblr blog too, you'll probably see it tending towards more emo sad unhappy slashwrist YOU kind of posts.
which, well i guess really is what i feel a lot. trust me when i say tumblr is expresses me most accurately.
i like surfing it alot. =)

i'm really very tired and i can't wait for this sem to end. i need a break from everything. i'll probably hibernate for a month or something.

missing cheer so much. want to stunt and fly.
stupid schoolwork why art thou present in my life.
go and die.

i think, one thing i want to remember,
is that people and things change.
change is the only constant.
but everyone and everything changes for the positive, not the worse.
everything will be alright and everything will fall into place.

nights like this, where i sit alone in my room at home, listening to slow songs on my 'can sleep to' playlist, can't help but feel the emptiness surround.
goodnight.

2011-04-07T03:03:00.002+08:00

dance till i sweat, till i bleed, till i cry...

i love dance. <3

looking forward to DU next week! =)

2011-04-04T23:26:00.002+08:00

o n e d a y s o m e d a y p a t i e n c e w a i t i n g w a i t i n g i h o p e h o p e h o p e i k n o w k n o w k n o w t o b e l i e v e i n t h e r e a l i t y o f m y d r e a m s w h a i w o n t g i v e n e v e r f o r g e t . . . .

2011-04-03T01:44:00.003+08:00

whoever makes me happy whoever makes me smile, i think, is all that matters. not caring how long it'll last, not caring anything else. not even calculating plausibility possibility incredulity. daring to trust, daring to believe, daring to love. might break my heart tear it to pieces bleed and get trampled on. but just might. might not right? if it does at least u smiled and lived and ur heart was happy. no regrets. no fear no regrets. talking to u everyday even just a for a while puts a smile on my face and this warm fuzzy feeling inside. i don't even realize it when i unconsciously smile. don't know how don't know why, no reason, no explanation and honestly, damn stupid. but i guess, it's just different. and different is special. is special real? it doesn't feel real at all, like a dream or just a figment of my imagination, like another thought, an aside, abstract. but then again, nothing feels real anyway. how real is real. what is real. so what if it is not real? i always say it's complicated. because it is not. because it is just that simple. but too simple to be true too simple for anyone to believe. which then makes it complicated. and makes me tired to bother about explaining. why bother. it's selfishly mine and about me. it's the reason i wake up and go to sleep feeling happy and the reason i sleep so much. i can dream and relive everything and every time and dream and dream about what did what could what will and just dream. happy and sad at the same time. i am not sure how it works but it does. but really i never ever question anything much. why bother. doesn't change anything. either way, i like to believe that positive outcomes only and no matter what, despite everything, it'll all be ok. everything will be alright.

long ~~incoherent~~ coherent paragraph of my thoughts. =)

change this lonely life~ all i want only one street level miracle~
count my blessings.

2011-03-31T02:39:00.002+08:00

i just received a letter from the past.
it was written by the me on feb 28th and set to be mailed on 31march.

which is today.

Dear FutureMe,

this is written on 28feb, after the last in-hall rehearsal in DP. by now you read this email, DP will over, Nationals will be over too. how do you feel? i hope you are feeling happy right now, super duper happy. feeling extremely accomplished and damn damn awesome. i really hope you feel like this. everything you have worked hard for, hope it all turns out the best it can be. i hope you feel exhausted, exhausted but happy. =) right now, when i am writing this, how do i feel? i feel very psyched about everything, but worried at the same time. i know and understand the stress. the fucking loads and loads of stress. ='( exhausted, so tired. have submissions and everything to worry about on top of the endless hall stuffs. but on the verge of dying and in so much pain, arms covered in bruises!! but still believing in myself. really want everything to work. what else? right now? it's the last day of feb. so fast right? ...................[censored]...........no regrets. this is the most tiring and packed time but i know this is the most enjoyable. =)

from, elvie in the past.

2011-03-27T14:13:00.002+08:00

today marks a week after 2ndSNCC2011, i think so far, one of the happiest and most memorable days ever. tired to describe it already, in short, there is nothing like that day.

everything we worked hard for finally paid off with an ASU routine and 2nd place ranking. =)

which of course calls for celebration for an entire week, resulting in spending a hell load of money, going out a lot and only attending 2 hours of school the whole week.

was good la. felt like a much deserved break.

of course, now there's the price to pay i.e. the lesser time for my mountainload of assignments all due around the same time.

still in the holiday mood. feel like there is nothing else important to do. but have to focus la.

<3 cheer.

2011-03-18T16:33:00.002+08:00

today i received a mysterious registered package in the mail. was a big big box i didn't know what it was because i wasn't expecting anything.

but what i got was probably the biggest surprise and the greatest love ever. it was 2 tigger plushies and the sweetest card ever from my family. my dad, my mom and my brother.

i cried alot when i opened it because i was simply so touched by it. really. not exaggerating.

i know they are unable to make it to watch the competition on sunday, but i still feel all the support and encouragement from them.

my dear family, i really love all of u alot, despite not having been home for so long and always taking u for granted. really thank u all so much for this. couldn't have ask for any other.

2011-03-16T15:44:00.002+08:00

yesterday night was the first time we accomplished an ALL STUNTS UP for the entire routine run and the feeling was simply euphoric, nothing short of awesome. didn't even realize we were on our way to an asu until edw shouted it before the last pyramid sequence. seriously, it was such a bloody exciting feeling at that moment where fighting spirit increased tenthousandmillion fold and we fought for the first ever asu in our champion choreography of a routine. simply loved the feeling where everyone cheered and whooshed and celebrated together. that feeling was so memorable. because from then on, we know that it is possible. that asu is not impossible. that we can do. and not only dreaming and believing, we are doing it. i think it was a fantastic confidence boost to everyone and all the more we will make today's preview perfect and sunday's performance more than perfect. the best. give it our all.

how do u spell perfect? S-T-E-P-P-E-R-S =)

it gets better everytime. by sunday, it'll be nothing but the best.

2011-03-14T01:57:00.001+08:00

today i learnt something,
that there is no choice without loss.

2011-03-10T23:57:00.003+08:00

throwing myself to the dance, totally losing control and immersing myself in the emotions overflowing. feel so alive and to be back dancing and dancing like this. reminded of this feeling that is like none other.

2011-03-09T03:21:00.001+08:00

what happens when believing is not enough?

2011-03-07T20:38:00.001+08:00

even after DP is over. my schedule is still packed full with daily cheer trainings and dance practices.
1 thing down, 2 more to go.
DP down, nationals and DU to go. can u believe it? nationals is just next sunday. how time flies when you're doing what u like.
the idealistic life.
i know how risky this is, all these is. but i also know how passionate i am about it all.

was considering whether or not to do DU seeing the OMFGSOMUCH submissions i have on in those days. but i remembered the feeling on stage, the feeling of performing and i figured to just whack. everything will turn out ok. i just know it. i choose to believe in positive outcomes only ^^
i dont want to be at the wrong side of the stage and regret not taking the chance to be up there. so yeah. just whack.

i feel so tired looking at my schedule but i know, everything will be worth it.

just need to focus!!

2011-02-28T20:30:00.003+08:00

i need to destress! in an inkless way. the last time i wanted to destress, i went out and got a hibiscus inked on my hip. nonononono that will not work now. that cannot be the only way to destress.
mygoodness, breatheeee~~~
i dislike school and all the unnecessary pain it brings me.

2011-02-28T02:22:00.002+08:00

tonight was the last DP full run in hall. next week will be bump-ins at ucc and it's showtime. and by this time next week, DP will be over. everything we have been learning and cleaning and practicing will be done and dusted, nothing but this fond memory. last lap to go for DP, let's make it a fabulous one. my first DP!

am still contemplating to actually go for DU, although i already signed up for 2 items. seeing the truckloads of deadlines so near around those dates, i really wonder if i can handle it. haiii....but if i don't dance, don't perform, will i be content? perhaps i can work it out?? *sigh*

shall just take a step at a time.
right now, i'm awfully stressed, and it's not about school. =(

2011-02-27T01:07:00.008+08:00

finally, a proper post.

been extremely busy with cheer n dp n school, dp is only next week and theres like only 20odd days more to nationals! omfg!! *inhale exhale inhale exhale*

but for ihg closing, we still did an awesome performance and i enjoyed every single minute of it. ihg closing is the only time when the entire team gets to perform together. we only had 2 trainings to prepare for it, so i think we're quite zai to come up with something liddat lor. hahahaha. got to wear our superawesomepossum new white uniforms, how chio can! ^^
the all girls stunt group we had! pro sia. my first time...hahaha so fun right.
is the kind of no stress have fun make it nice routine performance and i guess it really bonds the team. we bond when we 'POP' together! haha

thanks for the pretty sky on that day so we can have so pretty photos! =)

my scorpion. ^^ is ugly la, i knowwww. u should see my lib, even uglier. sickle feet sia. nb.

oh but doing scorpion now is so painful for my back =( for quite a while already, it's been hurting. went to a sinseh few days ago and said one side sprained and swelled. quite sian because now it's so painful when i bend forward or arch my back and jumps hurt cos of the impact. feeling sucks. i should rest but there is no time. he helped me massaged and all i think it feels alot better now but still hurts as fuck when i pull. ='( let's hope it recovers soon.

my super zai group stunt team! bases jingjie and ben!! they are really so damn awesome!! super stable, i love working with them. =DDD let's jiayou tgt!!

i like how we can communicate well with each other and we never gave up despite all the setbacks we faced. i know we can do it. let's go!!

the ahlian cheerleader. ^^v

love the new uniform. so chio.

plus yod's zai makeup skills! like professional like that.

heel stretches! =DD

arabesque! (and the lovely skyyyyy)

LOVELOVE =DD

2011-02-26T03:50:00.003+08:00

i really wish i knew what to do. i really hate this inconsistency. i hate it i hate it i hate it. i hate everything. i feel so incompetent, like i can never accomplish anything. i hate it i hate it i hate it.
great big disappointment.

2011-02-22T14:00:00.002+08:00

it's amazing where i put my heart.

2011-02-18T17:20:00.003+08:00

i need to stay alive.
feeling that i will burn out if i haven't already done so.
fatigue.
paradox. i want it all to just stop, yet i don't want to be doing anything else.

on a sidenote,
i wish for something different. different to be same as the rest.

2011-02-16T03:12:00.003+08:00

covered in horrible horrible ugly painful bruises, blisters...getting stares and questions from friends around me. looking as if i've been abused. muscle aches here there everywhere. my left ankle is pain-ing again, the old injury's pain feeling like coming back, after so many years. =( cracking bones, feel like an old woman.
every night is packed full of cheer training and dance practices...all extending late into the night. sleeping past 4am 5am everyday and struggling to get up to class in the morning. most of the time not even conscious enough to wake up on time. afternoons are spent attempting to do readings, complete assignments and projects, where hours tick past in lightspeed and unfinished work pile up mountain high. every single waking moment occupied with so many things to do.

sometimes i wonder why i try to do all these stuffs. esp seeing friends outside hall who have more free time, more relaxed, able to catch up with schoolwork. while i am struggling to even go to class on time.
but i wouldn't trade this for anything else, any kind of life. the stress, the pain, the exhaustion, no matter to me. i will persevere. i will fight!!

i foresee many more sleepless nights, many more times where i drag my drained self to my room and where i force myself to focus on studies.

stay alive.

2011-02-13T01:17:00.001+08:00

i like the giant endless infinite night sky above my head.

2011-02-10T04:10:00.003+08:00

fighting! let's go fight win.

jiayou to us for this monthplus more to nationals.

really happy that everyone's fighting together and improving together.

yes yes we can zai zai swee swee awesomepossum routine.

KR Steppers!!

on a sidenote,

i need to study more. should freakin stop sleeping so much in the day. like pig liddat wts.

need to save money. yes yes please save up!

2011-02-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

and remember me tonight when you're asleep

2011-02-06T22:05:00.003+08:00

today i just got thinking about tattoos (again, i know).

they help me remember who i am =)

2011-02-05T21:10:00.001+08:00

oh yeah, i'll tell you something

i think you'll understand

when i say that something...

2011-02-04T01:36:00.002+08:00

cny day 1. my throat is driving me crazy. but i am loving cny goodies!!

but omg have to seriously stop eating, getting fat fat fat!! ahh!!

and should get down to studying. it's what i planned to do this cny.

thank god for school holiday. i feel like i'm getting enough sleep =)

(not as if i don't already sleep so much during school days...)

best part about cny apart from the food? the angbaos!

am gonna save up my angbao money! =P

pineapple tarts ftw!

and i tried this new raisin cookie thing...wahhhh so damn nice!!! loves it ttm.

plus steamboat =9

worst part about cny? the visiting lor. damn boring. nothing to do. judging by tweets, i think everyone feels the same way. but well, customs la. (and to get angbao+eat other ppl's food)...just go lor.

i feel like training now.

my throat is so pain now, esp everytime i swallow.

make me not feel like eating anymore........ok not really. but still.

and coughing also. abit gross but phlegm alot lor.

hai...to be sick until cny, zd sian ttm lor.

want to just nuaaa~~~~

laziness ftw!

2011-02-02T01:50:00.002+08:00

i guess i have to learn to be true to myself. to be who i am. to move on. to embrace this life i am living. and live it to the fullest.

took a leap of faith, jumped straight into the sea, and gave all my trust.

i guess, right now, is to be courageous. courage to believe, courage to trust, courage to just take on whatever comes my way.

no matter how unbelievable, no matter how impossible, no matter how implausible. i guess, just see what happens.

i think...enjoy the moment.

for now i'm happy. and for now, that's all that matters. =)

bro, thanks=)

2011-02-01T17:00:00.001+08:00

welcome to February. it's been a month already.

2011-01-31T20:23:00.002+08:00

my last few tweets:

ok from now till training, im gonna be productive.
43 minutes ago

productivity hasn't started yet...
27 minutes ago

still not productive yet...
1 minute ago

i kinda think the next one would be
"fuck it i'm going to sleep"

please not.

2011-01-30T14:32:00.001+08:00

i want new makeup for chinese new year

2011-01-28T17:25:00.003+08:00

chinese new year is next week. not buying new year clothes this time because i am so broke already, plus there are so many clothes in my wardrobe i have yet to wear them. so they still constitute as new clothes right??? dont know.

after paying hall fees, the balance in my bank account is pathetic. ='( time to stop shopping and save money. pray hard that i get loads of angpow this year. anybody's house i can go to ~~take angpow~~ bai nian??

started studying, reading my readings and texts. MY GOODNESS SO FREAKING BORING. still lagging behind like fuck. need to buck up! comeon!!

as usual, nights are filled with cheer trainings and dance practices.

coming back with so many bruises and waking up in the mornings with muscles aching like mad.

i think one month plus? (sorry, i can't count) left to go for Nationals and DP.

ultimate stress.

but PRESS ON!

on a sidenote, hardly have any mood or wadever to update this blog. i do upload my tumblr (http://elvienawang.tumblr.com/) quite often. =P

2011-01-25T03:19:00.002+08:00

somewhere in between reality and all i've ever dreamed about.

2011-01-24T02:50:00.002+08:00

week 3 of school tomorrow.

my weekend is gone just like that.

everyday's schedule is packed to the max with cheer and dance on top of going to school.

tiring? yes

exhausting? yes

time-consuming? yes

fulfilling? HELL YEAH!

2011-01-19T19:02:00.002+08:00

note to self: please fucking get down to studying.

2011-01-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

big brother bf,

i really admire your courage. u did something i never ever dared to do. and for that, i look up to you a lot. i hope that everything will be okay soon and we can all smile from our hearts again. =)

___

into the second week of school now.

nationals is in 2months or so, so is DP which is even earlier than nationals.

go me. jiayou!

2011-01-11T19:50:00.002+08:00

2nd day of school today. and it's so daunting seeing what is to come. the assessments, the exams, the workload.

not to mention sem2 is always the most tiring and busy sem ever, what with nationals (OMG!) and DP.

despite my horrendously cui CAP, studying is the least of my worries right now. there are other stuffs i'd rather do, other things to think about. but i need to survive, need to stay alive. hai, some people (like me) are not meant for studying. the past 20years have taught me that.

EGAD! i'm turning 21 this year. goodness, time flies.

so tired already. have no idea what i did.

feel so lost.

2011-01-10T01:51:00.001+08:00

back in sg. ='(

2011-01-06T01:52:00.000+08:00

Blogging on bb in thailand!
Still alive.
Don't want to leave thailand at all=(
Sux to know that school is starting soon. Dammit, haven't even got all the mods I want.

<3 steppers, training, thailand=)

2010-12-28T02:21:00.001+08:00

we're all unusual, tragic and alive.

we're all mad here.

impossibly mad.

impossibly.

2010-12-26T04:20:00.003+08:00

new year resolutions...because i probably wun be around to write them on the actual last day of the year (thailand!)

2011 to be better than 2010.

2010-12-22T02:02:00.000+08:00

Blogging in my bed at home right now, tried to sleep but can't. Because my body clock's not used to sleep at these hours. Nocturnal. Insomnia. dunno how. Anyways, xmas is this weekend and next week will be flying off to thailand for 12days. I want to go there right now. Fmp fmp. Thai camp. Thai camp.
Today the sem has officially ended, with the release of the results. Hai, have no comments about my own. Just don't want to care anymore and say the usual 'I'll work harder next sem'. Next sem is going to be a killer with DP, DU and most importantly, Nationals. Shall see how it goes..really have to buck up if I want to keep my scholarship. Fml.

Going through abit of angst and emo, prob over various issues and various people. I somehow always think that I am complicating my own life. But ahhh fuck it.
So sian.

...Yes I'm wishing my life away, with these things I'll never say (to you)...

2010-12-20T14:46:00.004+08:00

this little sweetheart that reminds me so much of myself.

i hope you get well soon.

happy birthday =)

2010-12-19T04:48:00.003+08:00

how do you remain positive and optimistic when everything else is dying so much around you?

the world is not nice anymore.

somehow, i'm reminded of that night where we all poured our hearts out and cried together after hall bash (i think). we should all hug and cry and get strong after it.

i want to go fmp now.

2010-12-16T17:38:00.002+08:00

dance camp ended, results will be out next tuesday (fml), DP vetting this saturday, only 5 trainings left till thai camp, christmas is next week. where did my days go...

monopoly deal to help me survive sleepless nights. sleeping when the sun rises and waking up in the afternoons reminded of the training last night by the so sore muscle aches and countless bruises (my poor knees, arms, and for the first time ytd, my nose). zdy live the holidays feeling like an old person.

have to lose weight summore. how hard to control my appetite can. keep wanting to eat. should be more stubbornly strict with myself. ahhh pek cek ttm. 妈的。。。

no money summore. sjp.

on an even sadder note, fuck inconsistency in training. can get cannot get can get cannot get. want to kill myself already.